Confessions. Secrects. Thoughts. Rants. Embarrassments. Hang ups. Put downs.

I am 17 years old and I am still a virgin. I have never had a boyfriend and I hardly even kissed or fooled around with anyone. Sometimes I fantasize about girls two and I am a girl, even though I am strait. I don't kno what is wrong with me, I think I am a freak. Why can't anybody like me? I am not even that ugly.

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Before I got the internet i used to stay home from school and watch discovery channel all day in hopes of seeing some african tribeswomans breasts

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When I go through the drive through at McDonalds I order two drinks just to make the people inside think I am ordering food for 2 people, because I eat so much food. Milkshakes are soo good.

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this one time when i was really high i went to the grocery store and stole a box of poptarts, except i didn't have my purse or pockets, so i took them all out of the box and hid them in my pants.

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I used my roomates microwave to make popcorn and I caught it on fire. I put the fire out, but now the microwave no longer works. There are burn marks all over it and it's very obvious what happened, but i'll never admit it.

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My pee smells funny. Could it be medical, or maybe just something i ate? I think I will look it up.

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I have a boyfriend, but I am in love with this other guy. I talk to him on the phone every night and sometimes go on dates with him, and I think my boyfriend is starting to expect something because I treat him like shit now in hopes that he will break up with me so I won't have to. I am such a coward. I should just tell him, but it's so easy not to.

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My parents recently threw out a couch because it was dirty beyond recognition. They wondered about how it got that way, but here is the truth. I watched porns on HBO and Cinemax all the time and I jerked off and wiped it on the cushion, and now we are getting a new couch that probably cost a few hundred dollars. Sorry. I am 14.

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I love him so much, his name is Ben.

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I once was flirting with this really hot girl- then I learned that she was only 13 years old (almost 14) and I was about 19 at the time. The sad part is, I still didn't stop flirting with her and I had to muster all of my willpower not to take advantage of her. Even so, it was really only because I didn't want to end up in jail or something. She looked older than she was.

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